Discontentment….Is this what I’m feeling or is it just satins way of imposing on my life?
I feel like I should be somewhere else, not stuck behind a desk all day in a cube. I love what I do, I love making a difference but is this your path for me oh Lord?
Is this what you want for my life? I feel as if my spirit cannot stay still but my body cannot move…
Heavenly Father I pray that you show me the answer, I pray that you move me if I am to be moved, I pray that I can say YES to you when you call, I pray I am able to discern that this is you oh Lord.
This was a conversation I had with my Heavenly Father just a little over a week ago and can I tell you He listened to me. Although He did not answer me immediately as of course I wanted Him to but friends He did answer me. He answered me earlier this week and let me tell you it was not pretty.
As I have said before I am in an online bible study #YesToGod and I was watching some videos I found through some of the blogs the host have and I felt the Spirit come to me and wrap His arms around me and just engulf me in Him.
I was watching someone speaking to young girls about relationship and I started to think “Lord this is what I should be doing. I should be out encouraging others like this, I have helped others and I know I just know I can help more people but Lord you have to get me there.” Oh yes I did tell Him that He needs to get me there because this is what I knew that is what I should be doing.
Can you relate? Have you ever told God your plans and expect them to happen?
So in that moment of me making plans for my life, He smacked me right in the face. My Heavenly Father said to me in the most loving way possible as if He were right there with me holding my hand bent down on one knee, He said to me “My child, how do you expect Me to allow you to stand and speak my words to others, to encourage others, to help others if your own household in not in order.”
I gasped, I was stunned, I was frozen. He then said to me “You can’t be content with your job, your clothes, with anything even yourself if you chose to allow you house to be so cluttered. Get your house in order.”
For God is not a God of disorder but of peace—as in all the congregations of the Lord’s people. 1 Corinthians 14:33
So as I asked my Facebook friends to help pray for me as I take this journey on cleaning my house and making it my home, I ask each of you who are reading this to do the same.
You see I hate to clean, I mean I really really hate to clean. I feel that my time can be spent on other things but if the others things I’m spending my time on is not of the Lord than what is that really saying to my relationship with Jesus?
I was really never made to clean much of anything except dishes when I was younger so this is going to be hard and a journey for me but I’m comforted to know that in Matthew 19:26… Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” and as Jesus tells us in John 14:20… On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you.
Jesus is in me and we are in Him our Heavenly Father so I have nothing to worry about. I have accepted this challenge.
So friends I ask you to hold me accountable to this road that I must travel at this point in my live. I will keep you updated as must as possible. Maybe after everything is clean and the way it should be I will post some before and after pictures.